strong content warning for themes of suicide and drug use.


10th Mar 2016, 1:00 PM
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Save my Place Load my Place

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Nobody 10th Mar 2016, 1:00 PM
two promises.


kitsune-rokko 10th Mar 2016, 1:52 PM
I feel this page is a good example of how well you do subtle motion OwO
Guest 10th Mar 2016, 5:17 PM
great pacing! so one of lola's survival instincts is being agreeable... i see... also i just had a thought that i didnt notice before, but it's kinda interesting that sugar looks like a rodent but eats meat, because rodents usually eat grains/seeds, so maybe its like reversal thing. what kind of animal is sugar?
Nobody 10th Mar 2016, 7:09 PM
thanks for the comment!

sugar is a hybrid between a sugar glider and a philippine tarsier.

she inherited a lot of her pelage, nose, ears, and brow shape from her sugar glider side. sugar gliders are visually confused for rodents, so often that pet sugar gliders have their incisors trimmed under the false belief that they never stop growing.

meanwhile, she inherited much of her jaw, eyes, and proportions from her tarsier side.
from that side, she also inherited a carnivorous metabolism. tarsiers are the only primate family to be obligate carnivores. here's a picture of a tarsier skull to compare the dental anatomy.
Guest 11th Mar 2016, 2:04 AM
I love the way these characters interact and I'm so excited to learn more about Lola.
OS 13th Mar 2016, 10:46 PM
what a morbid looking diner! it's midday, the sun is out, the grass looks green and the pavement light grey, but inside, everything looks sanguine pinks and reds. i think the connection to the carnivore restaurant and its meaty lighting is all the more vivid and atmospheric for me because i haven't eaten meat in 6 short years...
Bowsmed 25th Nov 2016, 4:40 PM
I'm just realizing this, but with the shaky glass, was that because she was nervous, or because she has two sets of eyes, sorta sending her two separate pictures?
Nobody 25th Nov 2016, 6:41 PM
hi bowsmed. the view of the glass is shaky because lola's inebriated; her sobriety and how much she relents or opens up is a common theme in the story.
earlier in the scene she had a glass of something yellow (beer) in a glass different from what regular drinks are served in (this is common in restaurants to identify alcoholic drinks and avoid accidentally serving them to minors).
this is also why the waitress asked her if she wanted another instead of just refilling her drink for her.
it's ambiguous whether she's already taken any pills or not, but she probably did take some before eating, so it's hitting her hard (this is actually why she asked for some water).
rey 21st Dec 2016, 2:20 AM
im excited for the update so i decided to reread the whole comic (which i honestly do almost every other week -- it's kind of like a movie, every time i reread it i notice things that i hadn't before!!) n i love how especially on this page you can see the size difference between sugar's paw and lola's hand, it's so cute oh my gosh
Guest 29th Jan 2017, 6:59 PM
This is more a comment about 1 though now, 28, in my re-read, though focused on the restaurant scene as while past me's last public comment was during this scene, it was kind of, sparse and in the moment.

Anyway from the re-read so far I knew to look for Sugar's eye symbolism and it looks like when her blue eye is in focus is when she's focused inward, of herself, and brown eye focus is when she's focused on Lola, reaching outward? I'm not sure if this is correct, and the other pages might refute it? I'm trying to take it slow and not rush through like that one time i rushed through Secretary to try and impress you, way back when.

I really like how the overall scene balances important monologue information with keeping in mind the setting, like, with the fact there's other people there and realistically a conversation is bound to be interrupted by the hospitality staff.

This last page of the scene, and especially the last panel, looks very tense, like, how you draw them really captures like... I know my body gets physically shaky when it feels like serious relationship vulnerability is at the forefront, and that's how, like, it feels like they're real and tangible. Admittedly I'm not sure on any interpretation on the fork in the steak. My gut impression is that it's a mark of death, like, the reason why when eating with chopsticks to not stick them upright into the unfinished food, but that's probably because of my own heritage and probably isn't applicable to a fork's symbolism? It does still like, make sense in that a theme of the story seems to be death(?)
red 15th Mar 2018, 4:31 AM
on a reread: i appreciate that sugar's comments about being miserable and not having to suffer are deliberately juxtaposed in one panel against two visibly happy individuals in the foreground.

not sure if the symbolism is deliberate but it easily reads as "these are neurotypical Normal People who we're supposed to be like but we're not. we are different." like it reaffirms the jarring difference between the two, between what they experience and what is normal.

it reminds me of sitting in restaurants looking at others and feeling the palpable alienation between myself and the life they seem to be living, even if it's a judgment that is not necessarily true.
cccccc 7th Jun 2019, 9:17 PM
rereading this, one of my favourite things to remember was the differences between the two. Sugar's big hands holding lola's little ones, the excited (or, stimulated? attentive?) twitching of sugar's tail compared to the suppressed shaking of lola's legs. lola's two eyes that both conceal and betray her feelings, sugar's direct, genuine gaze... these two are soooo different from each other and that makes them seem so much more in love. what a dream, honestly.