The feeling I get from the page is of like, Sugar has been trying to be "not thinking" as much as possible because of like, knowing she'd otherwise get into the spiral effect shown when she does spiral and closes her eyes and swerves for a moment.
And like in the last panel Lola's eyes like her top pair looking worriedly while her bottom pair are like, more, seems to be ambiguous like whether on edge from the swerving or having a "oh no..." reaction to Sugar's finishing of the "i should stop" sentence?
these past few pages Sugars characterization has been alternately focused on either one eye or another in one of the most intense/unfaltering ways ive seen in this comic i think. Sugar is really struggling hard with the cognitive dissonance now that its pretty much been verbally confirmed how Lola has been/may be affected by their relationship and having to really experience/confront/dwell on each "side" of her individually, has got to bring up a lot because she cares about Lola and her friends and family and she is considering how the confirmation of Angels death solidified her decision to jump. she sure does think a lot about others despite there being "no guilt to a corpse"
It seems like Lola has been the one to think more about this impending suicide than Sugar has, as well as having more second thoughts. In some ways it feels like Lola agreed to go along, but is having doubts, but feels like she can't back out now because they've already come so far. Does she want to back out? She has at the very least thought of it considering she nearly called a suicide hotline.
With the end of the comic looming I just can't help but wonder if both of them will go through with it. The story has such a feeling of 'there's no turning back', even though they technically could, the feeling is still definitely there. Lola seems more likely to hesitate when the time comes than Sugar.
It feels like Sugar is trying not to think about it, maybe afraid that she'll get cold feet, maybe some other reason? They haven't really had a good talk about any sort of reservations they might have about it, almost like they're trying to pretend they don't exist, and I'm curious what conversations lie ahead with the potential suicide so close. Death is a scary thing to face.
one thing i love about this page is how in panels 15 and 17, which are the closest to sugar's point of view without actually showing what she's seeing, you can see the same effects of the brain zap she had when her nose first started bleeding. that's a nice bit of continuity/attention to detail, imo, i'm always impressed by how much information you can pack into a single page without it being overwhelming.
The lighting and detail on this page is beautiful. I'm on the edge of my seat every time you update and find new things to look at every single time I re-read.
my gf just said "dude, this whole page, i feel like i can just reach out and touch them." and i couldnt agree more. its so good.... the coloring is vivid and lovely and it all feels very real. my favorite is panel 15. love where this is going
theres something special about this page- the colors, the lighting, the expressions, the mood, the writing. i mean, its all good obv but this whole scene feels like a real standout. i think im biased towards your sunset scenes, in general,
hey bowsmed.
i like her work; i actually commissioned her for a personal comic about suicide some-odd years ago and i support her patreon.
despite this, i am at least 2 seasons behind on crow cillers.
her work can be very difficult to read on a technical level due to the abstract visual style and the vague writing style buried under 7 layers of meta. i find it hard to stay interested in work that seems equally disinterested in whether i read it or not.
props where props are due, though, it's hard to build a following large enough that over 150 people are willing to support you, and she's a very genuine writer.
god. panel 15 literally looks exactly like those moments i have when i recall my friend, aya. she committed suicide last year, and whenever i think about it, i swear the world goes black for a few seconds and i have to squish my eyes shut with my eyebrows and grit my teeth hard to keep myself from screaming and crying. it's amazing how many things in this comic perfectly relay those specific moments that not everyone can understand.
