strong content warning for themes of suicide and drug use.


6th Apr 2017, 12:00 PM
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Author Notes:

Nobody 6th Apr 2017, 12:05 PM
infection, affection, and rejection


noble 6th Apr 2017, 12:08 PM
a lot of interesting things to talk about going on in this page... one of them being how sugar gets concerned about little things in the future, for lola's hand getting infected, even though they are on their way to die
(im bad at meta analysis rip)
noble 6th Apr 2017, 12:18 PM
quite a lot of eye shines on this page also!
kitsune-rokko 6th Apr 2017, 12:11 PM
I feel Lola's lines are a very good explanation for why having someone you love strongly can generate the willpower to try resisting an addiction, even if the addiction is strong and can't be kicked outright like by still missing the thing you're addicted to.
seedy 6th Apr 2017, 12:42 PM
I am loving the physical wound/old emotional wounds metaphor aaaa. The dialog in this comic is so good
Alphones 6th Apr 2017, 1:02 PM
This page fucked me up
Blue 6th Apr 2017, 1:38 PM
Such a great update on my bday
Nobody 6th Apr 2017, 2:40 PM
ooohh, happy birthday!!
angel 6th Apr 2017, 2:40 PM
ahh the shines in her eyes are back! thats so cool
Apple S 6th Apr 2017, 2:57 PM
this page made me really feel a lot of things closing and wrapping up in the story. i really appreciated lola's upper eyes gazing toward sugar, rather than away. it reminds me of how i have intimate conversations: staring into nothingness in order to feel safe / articulate myself, but with all of my attention on the other person. maybe not healthy, but very Relatable.
kh 6th Apr 2017, 4:15 PM
I find the one line to be very interesting: "It's not fair to get closer to somebody when you plan on dying" I think that Lola said it referring to herself and her drug addiction, but it also applies to Sugar since we know that she had been planning on jumping off the grand canyon since before they met. You can tell by Sugar's face that she is thinking about that fact and is probably the big reason why she apologized. I wonder if that was intentional on Lola's part, though. Lola chooses her words carefully so I would think it was, but it also almost sounds a bit...accusatory if it was intentional which I feel like Lola wouldn't want to do. I'm not good enough at analysis to break it down any further tho lmao;;
AHH 6th Apr 2017, 4:56 PM
do you still plan on making this a 100 page comic? If so I'm crying bc of how close we are to the end
Nobody 6th Apr 2017, 6:37 PM
it's probably going to be a little longer than 100 pages. i'm not sure how many, but... not too many. we are pretty close to the end at this point.
Guest from page 89 6th Apr 2017, 10:08 PM
This page has fucked me up more than any other but I love it so much, like this conversation just illustrates this situation and the complexities of this type of relationship so well. This whole scene has just hit so close, brings back a lot of memories of a relationship I had while I was using opiates, feeling a desire to actually quit for someone (ad the struggles that came after). I just.. relate so much to what Lola's saying here, also especially after relating so much to page 89 just yes I love this scene (also I just realized you said I'd probably like page 91 which IS this page, and yes, you were right. Got the numbers mixed up I apologize, liked page 90 too but god YES you were right about liking this page it's my favorite so far).

Lola finally opening up abut her addiction and opening up in general plus that looming sense of the end of the story being near. Lola's eye shines coming back too while she's explaining it and her expressions just fuck me up even more. I just want to give both of these characters a hug. The last panel here too... I really appreciate this comic for making me feel and remember things, good and bad. It's hard for me to be able to relate to characters on this level, this just feels so real.
anonymous rabbit 7th Apr 2017, 12:28 AM
This Kills The Rabbit

i've been thinking about this page ever since I saw it on the patreon. It's struck such a strong emotion in me. I'm not that great at reading indirect signals but to me, i feel like this is the most Lola has ever opened up in a long time, without much prompting.

i know a lot of people say that what Lola said about the reason they quit, "It's not fair to get closer to somebody when you plan to die." has a double meaning for both them and Sugar. Maybe it does, maybe Lola is subtly calling Sugar out, but idk I don't think Lola would be that... directly accusatory.

To me at least, I think this is Lola saying "We can still turn back, you know. We can still go back. We can have another chance at being happy. It'll suck a lot of the time but at least we'll have each other and we can be happy like that." Maybe I'm just projecting too much ha ha.

I mean I'm pretty sure Lola has had trepidation about this whole jumping into the canyon thing since the very beginning, it's just took them up until now to articulate why. When Lola said "No reason not to" when Sugar asked why they wanted to die, I think that was them saying "I don't really know why." and now they know but I think now they're realizing they don't... Really wanna die, per se..? I think they just want things to be different, in a better way.

But maybe I'm way off the mark and I'm completely misreading this lol. I'm pretty bad at reading people/indirect signals so maybe I'm completely wrong. Sorry if this comment is a complete mess this page has just summoned a lot of Emotions for me.
anonymous 7th Apr 2017, 2:42 AM
this page breaks my heart...
Peach 7th Apr 2017, 1:12 PM
Wow, what a page. I really like the physical/emotional wounds metaphor, and I think you get to see a lot about both Lola and Sugar through their words here... Looking forward to more, as always!
molly 7th Apr 2017, 2:48 PM
as someone whos also had problems w/ opiates this page and lolas feelings resonate w/ me a lot. stopping is real hard and to find someone or something that makes you want to pull yourself out of that is a rly big thing. addiction is scary and rly hard to deal w/ and this page broke my heart
nix 12th Apr 2017, 9:44 PM
Sugar speaks so literally and obtusely it’s like you can see the impact breaking through the barrier of Lola’s “shell” right before she finally answers the second question of the day...Lola is such a real characterization of an addict, and the rise/fall + the dialogue in this page is just palpable in a way that i have a hard time looking at Lola when her eye contact breaks the fourth wall. real heavy stuff hitting real close to home. also digging the detail of Sugar reclining resting her cheek on her shoulder and then slowly sitting up
scully 27th Jul 2017, 6:38 PM
god, lola's line about waiting to move on to heroin hit so close to home... best portrayal of an addict ive ever seen in fiction, bar none
jim 23rd Feb 2019, 2:27 AM
i just wanna say
the point where someone moves onto heroin isn't always the point of no return. i've got 9 months off that shit. it's hard but doable :)
Vroomba 16th May 2019, 12:07 AM
in many ways, these characters are extremely delusional about nearly everything they talk about.

But let's face it, they're pretty fucking young, and what is it to be young, if not to speak definitively about things you have next to no true understanding thereof?
Spooky 9th Jun 2019, 10:05 PM
It's not fair to get closer to somebody when you plan on dying is such a harsh thing to say, but I think its fair in some ways. It's 3am and I'm too tired for an essay on it but I think its a cruel and necessary thing to hear.