strong content warning for themes of suicide and drug use.


31st Mar 2017, 12:00 PM
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Author Notes:

Nobody 31st Mar 2017, 12:00 PM
the word “lierons” in panel 3 is french.
for those who don’t speak french: it is from “lier”, which is the verb root of a word you may be more familiar with: liaison. it is pronounced “lee-ey-rowe” with a very slight, gentle nasal “n” sound at the end, able to be manipulated into a soft rhyme with “done” and “fun”. the “s” at the end is silent.
for those who speak french: what lola said may seem a bit nonsensical or confusing, since she used future tense. she remembered the original root verb, and the conjugation ending for “we”, and tried to put 2 and 2 together, unaware this was inaccurate. this is intentional.


wert 31st Mar 2017, 5:38 PM
omg i love the little happy rat vignette.

I also really love the shading/lighting on lola's hair, it looks very dynamic and 3 dimensional.
kitsune-rokko 31st Mar 2017, 8:12 PM
There's a lot of neat visual detail on this page, particularly the panels of the question marks and thought process chart next to Sugar's head. I like how the effect is subtle.

Also the Rat Park.. Q^Q The picture of the two rats in embrace is very QwQ tho
bluestar 31st Mar 2017, 8:18 PM
the visualization of the rat park study is really intriguing, i like how u integrated that into the story!!

also the 'i can be sharp too' with lola characterizing sharp as something positive (being smart/witty) versus how sugar negatively characterizes herself as being sharp in the last scene (like her teeth and claws?), the double meaning there is really interesting
Erb 2nd Apr 2017, 12:47 AM
Did you notice the part about "...studying addiction in rats. Animal ones." As opposed to anthropomorphic ones.
Erb 2nd Apr 2017, 12:49 AM
Always a hard issue. People ask why Mickey Mouse has a friend who's a dog and also a pet dog.
skip 2nd Apr 2017, 1:57 AM
I wondered for a while, was this worth it. For these two, it didn't seem like it at the slightest. Kind-of. The further they go, the more they disconnect. They talked but now it looks like... its pieced apart. Like, when the "roadtrip" began, where they started it turned into a breadtrail that only got thinner when chunks fell. But it's all on purpose. Not a lesson but more like a point has to be made- doesn't matter if it changes nothing, just a point has to be made and Lola's making it, i guess.
I think what I'm getting at is- Lola is smart. But they don't say what's wrong 'directly'. I think Lola wants Sugar to see there's something wrong with doing this trip. All of this, but doesn't want to answer questions because the answers are too personal and that shit is just better gone when you wanna feel better. But the way they do it isn't good either, they're putting their-self past all of this but it's leaving Sugar in the dark and Lola in some bad habits. And rat park kinda showed that. Those are eyes I have when I'm reminded of something I didn't want to remember or know, not again, not really when you have revelation. I don't think I know enough to say but I think Lola doesn't wnat to make this their problem. Just say it and leave it. But it just keeps coming back to haunt them.
Guest 4th Apr 2017, 5:09 AM
this is my fav interpretation of lola's motivations.. like how can you convince someone that suicide is wrong when you don't have a good enough reason or the tools to argue either way to your own self. lola consistently cites "no reason not to" in various ways as her motivation but it is just as easy to say there is no reason not to just live. the only way lola could probably stand a chance at convincing sugar this trip was a mistake is to find out why they themselves don't want to die, or maybe even why they want to live.
hop 2nd Apr 2017, 3:10 AM
This whole page seems to be just Lola trying to be above all the things that's... I can't say the worst of them so I'd rather say what makes them feel so much less of a person, or at least what makes them think about it. Now any concern Sugar may raise is almost like a red flag that Lola has to shoot down without a second, suave, thought.
The moment Rat Park showed up something in Lola clicked. They aren't one to shut Sugar up but it doesn't seem like they're going to ignore it. They listen and how their upper eyes stare through the whole thing just says, to me, "yea.. thats it" The upper set is focused but the lower set looks like they're checking a list. Everything Sugar says is just ticked off to anything that has happened in Lola's life, all that happened and what they needed.. what they needed to be normal, i can only guess. And in the end, Lola ends it with a disconnected, abstract allegory that applies to it. and then their-self. If Lola can't say it directly, or even correctly, then they can talk around it. The point whats up with them and this is it. In communism, everyone is made to serve a role, no matter what (if I remember right), and their relationship serves that. They need each other for the relationship to work, but more mechanically than personally. Lola won't stop Sugar cause then they wouldn't be Sugar anymore. Unless Sugar makes their-self feel worse, then they wouldn't be be able to "act". I don't think Lola's making any of this better being how they are but whatever this relationship may turn to, they're not in any rush.
I would feel its easy to think... feel like.. whatever is going, no matter if it has no good reason, no fair or satisfying reason, it has to be 'real', 'believable'. But Lola isn't robotic, they care so much about Sugar, so I'm scared what they'll do to keep everything going on at the 'normal' it has. I want to know how Lola thinks but I'm uncertain of how i should feel about it.
Arc 22nd Feb 2019, 5:56 AM
With regards to the communism bit: communists want a stateless, classless, moneyless society, and not to assign societal roles to people.