strong content warning for themes of suicide and drug use.


19th Jan 2017, 12:00 PM
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Author Notes:

Nobody 19th Jan 2017, 12:00 PM
not my prettiest page... i had to start from scratch on it tuesday morning.


Guest 19th Jan 2017, 1:28 PM
ive been noticing how lola looks up and sugar looks down since you mentioned it its interesting to see their roles switched in this page
grocer of despair 19th Jan 2017, 1:47 PM
I remember going with my partner through a stack of books that his mother bought after getting a divorce, and being amazed at the degree of specificity that these kinds of self-help books aimed for. There was one that was just called "BETRAYED!" I haven't interacted with his mother much, but since then, whenever I think about her, I think about that title, and about the mindset that lay behind that title.

Anyways, I love this page, and it honestly does not look the worse for wear for being done in a nightmare rush. Is there anything you did differently the second time around, when you had to start from scratch?
Nobody 19th Jan 2017, 3:59 PM
i spent a bit less time cleaning up lines and added fewer details than i would have otherwise, but mostly i color dropped the base colors from various previous panels and then tweaked them. usually i devote an entire day to picking base colors for panels, so it was an easy way to save time, but the coloring looks very wonky to me.
r 19th Jan 2017, 3:27 PM
oh wow, tuesday morning? for what its worth, i cant tell you had to do it so fast, it looks really good to me. i like sugars "mhhmmhm" and the face shes doin when she says it
Peach 19th Jan 2017, 4:51 PM
I like the way this page is split - it's a good way to show the different views of Lola and Sugar on this house as well as just being a cool effect!
josie 19th Jan 2017, 5:11 PM
lots of rly interesting juxtaposition going on..
bluestar 19th Jan 2017, 5:30 PM
it looks like whoever lived here might've had bpd with all of these books about it? i really think it's interesting how the panels on this page and the panels on the last page are split (for the most part), i think about the concept of splitting with respect to borderline personality disorder and how sort of... polarizing it can be? also the overlap with how sugar's thought process seems to work sometimes, like dividing things into absolutes (like "this is their decision and no one can change it") and then the overlap with the term "split" kind of connecting these ideas with the book lola's holding in the second to last panel? i like the panel structure in these last two pages a lot
Guest 19th Jan 2017, 5:59 PM
Sugar I have a degree in psychology and I don't known what they teach psych majors either
Garchomp445 20th Jan 2017, 1:47 AM
YOU CAN EVEN SEE HER EYES TURn, and she's talking about what she's thinking about even if it's like subconscious, seriously why is this so good?!
angel 20th Jan 2017, 1:56 AM
for what its worth i really love the layout of this page. i wish i had more to say on, like, symbolism and such but i really have a hard time, uhh..articulating my thoughts i guess.
in any case i really look forward to all these updates and theyre honestly helping me get through my own struggles right now. like, just counting down the days til thursday. its something to look forward to. (hope im not oversharing wow)
keep up the good work. it means a lot more than you know, i appreciate it.
ell 20th Jan 2017, 4:19 AM
coelacanth 20th Jan 2017, 6:36 PM
when sugar was like "i dont know WHAT they teach psych majors" i laughed a lot lol

and i think the books are supposed to indicate that person who lived here had bpd but my first thought was of my parents who own like 10 "why autism is actually pathologizing nerdiness" (???) and about how weird self help books can be. idk i thought it was funny that i wasnt the only person who thought of other kinds of self help books haha
wert 21st Jan 2017, 6:17 PM
i love the faces on this page a lot, and how you color the knife, i knew what color it was supposed to be instantly when i saw it.
i also really like the detail of sugar's hair on her ear after she looks up, it makes sense but i think other artists would have drawn her hair back in place already.

i like watching lola figure this place out, it seems like she has an understanding of people.
anonymous rabbit 23rd Jan 2017, 11:12 PM
idk why but this scene feels very tense, like its gonna be the major turnpoint for something.
maybe i'm just hypersensitive and like the tension between lola and sugar wanting to explore different things is setting me off, but its odd that i get such a feeling of tension from this scene.
im really excited to see what happens in it in the future tho.
angel 26th Jan 2017, 9:54 AM
oh i just noticed how sugars hair fell behind her ear in the last panel and i love it
artemis 28th Jan 2017, 11:16 AM
i love this scene so much. the split down the middle makes me think a lot abt all the little parts of disconnect between the two in the story so far? but also just illustrates that they're both thinking abt totally different things coming in here.

the middle where the pannels come together just slightly is a wonderful touch. the shift at the end in sugar's pannel implies a lot abt the next page and im excited 2 see if my prediction for what specifically happens next is correct.....
jes 18th Feb 2017, 1:25 AM
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! borderline !! that's me! that's me!!! oh my gosh!

and the panels are split like the split thing that bpd people do and !!! i love this comic im gonna cry
Nobody 20th Feb 2017, 2:50 AM
oohh you got it! i think you'd really like my next story, then. thank you for the comments.
merc 5th Mar 2017, 10:48 PM
i appreciate that i was able to tell what books were being parodied... (also i think this is my first time leaving a comment; i've been reading since last summer but got very behind and am only now catching up.)
Emie 21st Aug 2020, 8:31 AM
Oh. I recognize one of those books. Kinda. I ordered the ‘I hate you, don’t leave me’ book to help me better help my ex who struggled with BPD. Unfortunately we aren’t together anymore as it became suffocating and I believed I really couldn’t help him any better. He’d say my company would be enough help but. I just couldn’t, it hurt too much and I already had my own mental issues. Can’t say I don’t miss the good times, though, hah..
Guest 26th Sep 2020, 10:52 PM
knife spinny