strong content warning for themes of suicide and drug use.


21st Jul 2016, 1:00 PM
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Author Notes:

Nobody 21st Jul 2016, 1:00 PM
sadly did not get to include the dialog about eating dumpster pizza


Happy Birthday Waluigi 21st Jul 2016, 4:29 PM
has sugar noticed how lola's eyes show how she's really feeling? have they talked about it?
Nobody 21st Jul 2016, 7:26 PM
i think she has noticed they make different expressions but never really put two and two together, and largely ignores them. she is not the kind of person who picks up easily on social cues or reads facial expressions well to begin with.
i suspect it's probably been brought up between them and lola brushed it off.
Happy Birthday Waluigi 21st Jul 2016, 4:40 PM
I meant her upper eyes whoops
apple-S 22nd Jul 2016, 12:35 AM
i just. love this comic a lot
Harvey 23rd Jul 2016, 1:14 AM
i... i identify really heavily with sugar... on an unrelated note, i legit thought sugar was a petnane Lola came up with
Nobody 25th Jul 2016, 6:24 AM
haha nope. sugar is just her name. it gained some popularity as a name in the US in the aughts, early 2010's.
happy birthday sonic 23rd Jul 2016, 5:53 AM
friend recc'd this comic and i immediately fell in love. each of your panels bursts with life and expression and its really rare that i get to hear mental illness discussed so frankly and earnestly. im glad youre using yr art to not only tell a great story but give the gift of tons of mentally ill characters of all shapes n sizes n genders and species! it feels really nice.

just um. as a sidenote as soon as i caught up i decided id bit the bullet and schedule a therapy appointment. ive been sick all my life but dont have a concrete name for any of the things i have (prolly autism and bpd/c-ptsd????). i dunno if i wanna get better or if i even can but i know i can try. thank you for this.
Nobody 25th Jul 2016, 6:05 AM
good luck! i hope you can find out what you want and get there. be safe out there and thank you for the comment.
bluestar 23rd Jul 2016, 1:06 PM
i've really enjoyed this entire scene honestly, especially kind of getting a better understanding of what's been going on with sugar throughout. also, i've kinda noticed sugar has said things like how she's not stupid, she's smart, stuff like that (on pages 13, 32, 45, i think?) so i was just kinda curious about that haha

this has honestly been kind of hard to read for me because i find myself drawing a lot of parallels to my own issues/etc. but i've really enjoyed it. thank you
Bowsmed 22nd Nov 2016, 7:33 PM
Man, I really wanted to hear the rest of that conversation! Also, I want to know about the dumpster pizza. Could you maybe elaborate a litte, maybe even make a little side-comic if you have time? This entire thing is so addicting...
Nobody 22nd Nov 2016, 11:59 PM
i've thought about making a side-comic about it. to summarize: pizza chains have a set amount of time that premade pizzas sit in a warmer before they're thrown out. they end up throwing out a lot of perfectly good, edible pizzas. in this case, the guy lola was talking about had brought one for her as a thank you (for the idea, not the cigarette).
kitsune-rokko 1st Feb 2017, 2:12 PM
First in this scene (pg 39) I noticed that I didn't notice before the time lapse of the pill taking like, it multiple throughout the day instead of stylized only taking 2. And of course the pill dissolve to the moon is still a really cool image, and now that I know the time lapse, really hits more as a cap to the sequence since it marks night and all.

And then as the scene progresses, with Sugar talking about meds not helping her it feels like setting up more contrast.

Also gosh Sugar's breakdown is really relatable, and the end of 42, with Sugar dialing back from peak anger when seeing Lola (and presumably it sinking in how on-edge it puts Lola in) and then the relapse of more crying on 43-44, it's strong, and accurate. Like, just how the guilt and frustration can gush all out once the dam of composure breaks.

Another thing I noticed in the reread I didn't before was how the dusk sets in as the scene goes on, with it being very, very dark during the part Sugar is talking to Lola about schizophrenia. (And then it looks like the rest stop's lights kick in when Sugar responds to Lola saying they know people with it) The choice to have lighting timed like this seems like more contrast like, Sugar's dark place is very obvious when expressed and so the lighting is dark in her dark place, whereas from what I've noticed the previous scene, plus the restaurant scene, where Lola's dark place was the subject, were in very well-lit, like, I think to symbolize how their outward expression of their pain isn't the same super-obvious/dramatic type that Sugar's is?

Lola's words on 46, is still impactful, about it not being good when comparing past pains to hurt yourself with it.
GuardiAngel 22nd Jun 2017, 7:58 PM
oh my gosh i really wanna hear the rest of lolas story. "prayments" my god lola i love you so bad
robin 6th Aug 2018, 9:54 PM
i can't put into words how much i love this comic and how important it is to me. thank you so much.