strong content warning for themes of suicide and drug use.


30th Jun 2017, 12:00 PM
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Author Notes:

Nobody 30th Jun 2017, 12:00 PM
"red sky at morning..."
next page will be a large splash image. don't hold your breath.


Guest 30th Jun 2017, 12:01 PM
my heart is going 250 mph im gonna have a HEART ATTACJK!!!!!!!!!
t. 30th Jun 2017, 12:03 PM
it seems as if i have forgotten my name on my first comment but that doesnt really matter
these colors are fucking beautiful and im shaking im already anticipating the next page
kitsune-rokko 30th Jun 2017, 12:10 PM
This page's lighting is SO STUNNING omg

The effect of the last 3 panels like, the choice of shot and you can feel the "camera" lingering poignantly as Lola walks up to Sugar.

I also noticed that Sugar's eye shines are red while Lola's are still white (in relative color) and my guess is that it shows how much Sugar has her "eye on the prize"? (Though the coming pages seem like they'll show what it really means, I feel)
Nobody 1st Jul 2017, 7:56 PM
due to color relativity, the reflections in lola's eyes are brighter since they are surrounded by a brighter color, unlike sugar's.
unfortunately, lola's eyes stop catching the light again in the 12th panel as she becomes more conscious, and won't be visible on the next page.
thank you for the kind words!!
aqua 30th Jun 2017, 12:15 PM
cause of death: sugar's smile :') excellent update as always! the colors here are stunning, very reminiscent of the colors used in the restaurant scene. sugar and lola standing next to the tree at the edge is a great touch as well. all those roots, keeping it anchored and alive at the end of everything, whereas sugar and lola are in position to let everything go once and for all.
Nobody 1st Jul 2017, 7:51 PM
this is an excellent comment in that it points out a theme which hasn't been analyzed much yet involving sugar's brown eye (among other things)-- roots and staying grounded. the next page will focus on this theme specifically.
the colors also reminded me of the restaurant scene. i remember someone pointing out that the color red can symbolize love and passion or blood and death.
thank you for the comment!
noble 30th Jun 2017, 12:26 PM
i loaded and saw the red and died instantly then i saw sugar smiling and i went to Hell 2 and and my level of fear and excitement has led me to retain a semi-corporeal form where i haunt this website howling for the next update in my eternal tears
Guest 30th Jun 2017, 12:54 PM
oh man
Guest 30th Jun 2017, 1:04 PM
i looks like the end of the world
this is fucking surreal
the sun is back hhghhgg
essie 30th Jun 2017, 1:31 PM
catch me actually sobbing
Guest 30th Jun 2017, 1:34 PM
the precipice of the abyss
Guest 30th Jun 2017, 1:47 PM
the sun watching in the back Hoooooooo
Guest 30th Jun 2017, 1:48 PM
also lola guess ill die.png
89 30th Jun 2017, 2:09 PM
Sugar's expressions are so good in panels 3-5, like I immediately just sense a feeling of relief from her to finally be at the canyon. Beautiful page.

Also hopefully this expression isn't in poor taste but talk about a cliffhanger haha. That just popped in my head while I was wondering about how this'll end. Trying to make jokes to myself to deal with how sad I'm gonna be to not see these characters every week when this comic is over. I've never been so emotionally invested in and moved by a web comic like I have been with this one.
anonymous rabbit 30th Jun 2017, 2:47 PM

lola's upper eye shines vanishing in the previous page and then their expressions in this one. sugars relieved expression, her smile "this is finally over. this is it"

i know i keep saying i want them both to be okay but GOD i know that wont be true and at least one of them will die and i'm going to be heartbroken no matter which one, and utterly destroyed if it's both

100/10 page ripped my heart out and ate it in front of me
anonymous rabbit 30th Jun 2017, 3:03 PM
also i forgot to say this but i adore sugar's expressions, and what she says to lola's "its not a dream". she's EXCITED. she's relieved. after all the meltdowns and trials and setbacks, they made it.

i'm proud of her, in a weird way.

this story is finally ending and honestly? i am eagerly anticipating having my heart torn out for a second time.
Guest 30th Jun 2017, 2:52 PM
im yelling... please b ok
Guest 30th Jun 2017, 5:15 PM
ThatOneDude 30th Jun 2017, 5:53 PM
Peach 30th Jun 2017, 7:08 PM
Fallingfeather 30th Jun 2017, 8:52 PM
Pretty unrelated (I feel everyone else has already said what there is to say.) but can I just say... I love the colors you picked? Sunrises and sunsets can be SO intensely pink, like you wouldn't believe, but I've never seen a piece of media that caught that color as well as this one... it's just a small detail that makes this story all the better.
Nobody 30th Jun 2017, 10:28 PM
they really can! when i lived in arizona, it took some getting used to that the sunsets and sunrises often looked like an apocalypse was happening. it's due to desert dust in the atmosphere.
thank you for the comment!
kirin 30th Jun 2017, 11:21 PM
This page. I love the small details of the border lighting up as lola wakes up. Can I ask what those round black shapes are at the edge of those two panels? I'm guessing they're silhouettes of sugar and lola respectively. Anyway I can't get over the pallet here... It's so, intense and really adds to the tone of the scene. My heart is racing just thinking about the outcome. Amazing work as always!
Guardiangel 1st Jul 2017, 1:33 AM
I think they're supposed to represent how Lola is fading back into consciousness, like how the black is fading to white
Nobody 1st Jul 2017, 7:36 PM
yep, just silhouette edges. it helped define the depth a little more in the panels.
i didn't want them to create a circle by making them symmetrical in placement, so i decided to place them in a way that emphasizes the camera is looking slightly "down" while looking at lola and slightly "up" while looking at sugar.
rockdog 1st Jul 2017, 6:25 AM
is that a specific kind of tree? i feel like it might be symbolic.
Nobody 1st Jul 2017, 7:37 PM
it's a one-seed juniper tree iirc.
rockdog 2nd Jul 2017, 4:01 AM
Thats fascinating. Some stuff im reading about junipers is that the wood was historically burned at like, afterlife ceremonies. The aromatic smoke is supposed to open up a spiritual communication with the afterlife. So cool.
Guest 1st Jul 2017, 9:11 AM
holy shit the palette is so good.

i was thinking, im gonna be happy with any kind of ending (them dying, or living), because they both make strong points.

im also ok if it ends with ambiguity! i think that might actually be really cool, like how famous media like The Thing and Evangelion end, and you have to rewatch/scour the story to figure out what has happened.
j 1st Jul 2017, 12:29 PM
just to be clear on the timeline.. is this the morning after they almost got in a car accident? and if so, did they drive through the night, or sleep? (btw i love the colors here and this is amazing)
Nobody 1st Jul 2017, 7:45 PM
yeah, it's the sunrise after. they didn't sleep, just mostly drove in awkward/tense silence (a decent amount of it off-road or on poor excuses for dirt paths passed off as roads, which are pretty common in arizona and nevada).
tyler 2nd Jul 2017, 1:18 AM
oh my god this is. beautiful but i'm so sad it's ending
we all knew it was coming but this still feels heavy
Blue 2nd Jul 2017, 2:25 AM
Its more than obvious we are near the end... Yes? Its so sad to see it coming but i want to thank you for making this webcomic wich atleast for me, it has been a Lot more than that (i never forget to read weekly since a year already?) And ill cry so much... Ive waited for this so much but still didnt wanted it to happen as i grew more and more attached to the characters that i love so much because how much they represent and how much of them i have... (I have depression, bpd, schizophrenia and anorexia)
This comic has been a beacon of light during my darkests times but everything comes to an end eh? Btw offtopic but thank you again for saying happy birthday on the update of April 06
HOLYSHIT 2nd Jul 2017, 10:35 AM
milk 2nd Jul 2017, 4:29 PM
we're so close to the end. i figured now is a good time as any to leave this comment.

this comic has meant so so much to me over the past year or so. i started reading it not even a week after my best friend attempted suicide. it was raw and oddly comforting in some ways, like, the perfect and safest way to work through all my feelings afterwards. i see so much of myself and of him in both lola & sugar.

i've never read a comic more phenomenal. the symbolism, dialogue, art, the themes, and the plot progression have all been amazing. both me and my friend are in better places now than we were back then, and this comic is coming to a close right around the time we are both graduating high school. which, i know, is nothing more than coincidental, but still... somehow fitting to me.

i'm so so excited to see the conclusion, no matter what it ends up being. thank you so much for this brilliant story.
Guest 2nd Jul 2017, 8:22 PM
"splash image"
thats a little dark
mop 3rd Jul 2017, 1:29 PM
.... so, the end is near?
anonymous rabbit 3rd Jul 2017, 3:57 PM
panel 12 lola's upper eye shines are gone again

wert 3rd Jul 2017, 4:29 PM
i love your attention to lighting at different times of the day so much. I remember being very struck by the sunny day scene bc, it actually felt like a real bright sunny day and not just "default", because of the contrast with the other scenes' lighting!
I really enjoy it a lot and it has inspired me to try to vary my lighting in my work as well.
Kevin 6th Jul 2017, 5:17 AM
Holy shit... my friend just got me into this comic and im LIVIN'.

Sugar is so relatable to me...probably because im also in the boat of 'im broken, no doctors can help me' as well as thinking about suicide every day.

Thank you so much for this. As much as I think it'll be interesting to see them go through with it, I also really, really hope something stops them. They seemed to slowly be having doubts.
Robbie 5th Mar 2018, 1:14 PM
the colors are gorgeous... i read from start up to here today, and while i love the color work in all of the pages, it feels like this and leading up to it, everything became so intensely more vibrant and beautiful, even compared to that first sunset scene. saying the visuals go well with the feeling of the story is a bit of an understatement, but i don't have a better way to put it rn
Guest 18th May 2018, 12:26 AM
is this a real place?
Ramadan 8th May 2019, 3:27 PM