strong content warning for themes of suicide and drug use.


22nd Jun 2017, 12:00 PM
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Save my Place Load my Place

Author Notes:

Nobody 22nd Jun 2017, 12:00 PM
mistaking similes for a metaphor, mistaking meta for reality


t. 22nd Jun 2017, 12:01 PM
now those r some fuckin expressions thats what i call EXPRESSIONS
t. 22nd Jun 2017, 1:31 PM
and OH my god i just realized the car seats are translucent that's such a cool detail x_x
grocer of despair 22nd Jun 2017, 6:02 PM
love that car seat x-ray shot.
Peach 22nd Jun 2017, 12:53 PM
Fen again 22nd Jun 2017, 2:03 PM
1. lola saying “you can keep asking” in contrast with the two’s rigid rules of One Question A Day previously is… hmm… i don’t want to get personal here, but basically, it’s touching on something in my life, and it’s also just interesting to note her apparent change.
2. can’t help but wonder if this conversation thread is making lola consider those they’re leaving behind, and what memories they have of lola.
3. i love the line “i remember feeling it”. i’m not entirely sure why it’s resonating with me so much, but like, damn. the read I’m getting here is that lola suppresses her emotions so often that she remembers the event as her merely feeling the emotions, not actually sharing them, as she would do most of the time.
4. sugar’s face in the last panel…… that exhausted pain. that poor gal. gosh.
5. relatedly, i think that this is a good example of how sugar has trouble understanding people’s intent behind their words, and lola’s own communication problems exacerbate that. due to sensitivity to negative perception of her, she jumps to lola doubting her when she can’t quite make sense of what lola has said, presumably due to her schizophrenia. lola is often vague with her speech, and sugar is extra sensitive to their opinion of her b/c sugar loves them, so, well, you get this.
Guest 22nd Jun 2017, 3:17 PM
in the "you can keep asking" panel its actually Sugar who is saying that. I was confused too but if you look closely sugar is behind her saying it//its in sugars speech color.
Guest 22nd Jun 2017, 5:27 PM
There's a couple lines from a poem I really like that go something like this: "If no one knows you're alive, you aren't. If a tree falls in a forest and no one's around to hear it, it does make a sound, but then that sound is gone." I've been thinking about that poem a lot while reading this. I don't have anything too interesting to say about it, but there's something there that I feel a lot. I really like how you're engaging the subject here.
89 22nd Jun 2017, 6:54 PM
Another compliment to the expressions and artwork on the page, especially the first three panels of Lola eyeing that last cigarette. It makes me sad and nervous at the same time though knowing it's the last one from her pack. I'm wondering if she took those last couple pills yet too. With the amount she's binged on over the course of the trip, even with a lower tolerance after being clean, she probably wouldn't feel much of a high at all from the couple pills she has left.

I re-read this comic recently from start to a few pages ago and have been trying to interpret different motivations and thoughts for these characters in my head. I really can't predict the ending at all at this point, whether they'll go through with it, whether Lola truly wants to die, whether something/someone will interrupt Sugar's carefully thought out plan for where to jump. It's making me nervous and sad since I've grown to love these characters so much and just want a happy ending for both of them but life doesn't really work like that and this is so wonderfully and realistically written that it's impossible to predict the outcome, like in real life. Anyway more props to this comic overall, has made me Thursdays better this year.
Guest 22nd Jun 2017, 7:45 PM
not a super-related thought, but i feel like the moment lola's bottom eye-shinies come back (if they do) everyone's gonna lose their mind like they did on page 73
nixed 22nd Jun 2017, 10:53 PM
The way of Sugars eyes in some of the panels is very well done how the lowlights are almost the same shade as one another and so are the midtones it looks like. Feels natural and real sublte but also almost not

and idk if I’m just noticing it now but Lola uses a lot of filler words, particularly “like” in this scene, contimuously making similies out of the metaphors, even saying “like a metaphor” and i feel like it really reflects her fundamental detachment like how what is the difference between the real thing and a reference of the real thing when you don't have youre self so there’s particularly nothing to refer to or from like how can anything be grasped but as an unrealised concept, an idea removed grown from something else thought up by someone else, the very separation itself a foundation?

it feels like they have the closest idea they can get to one another just (at them moment)with their differences, mite just be the rising tension on its own but it seems their words are quickly getting less and less different. This page made me think of how Lola was just talking on 101 and 102about purpose and the meaning of life and living for feeling: Someone felt like it so now it is, but now its up to you to make it happen. But to Sugar, someone didn’t feel like it so now it isnt and now its up to you to make that happen. i think Lolas detachment and Sugars viscerality color the way that their shared goal of preservation takes form with Lolas legacy or echo or iteration(?) of other’s and drifting, versus the realness of Sugars own Angel and her functionally shot-for-shot re enactment thusfar and i think I wanted to say more about this but im out of juice
earthcell 24th Jun 2017, 3:20 AM
i'm speechless. i can't really gather up much to say anymore. there's weird anticipation here
Guest 24th Jun 2017, 3:56 AM
Just wanted to let you know that I regularly have dreams about these two characters. That's something that doesn't even happen with my own characters; that's how great these two are.

I'm so... I guess anxious? To see how this all ends. This has been a fantastic story.
Guest 26th Jun 2017, 4:51 AM
just thought of something. they're both kinda going through withdrawals from lack of their meds. it seems like as lola withdraws, she becomes less docile, and more willing to say conflicting things rather than just avoid talking. while sugar seems to becoming less initiating talk and more complacent. it's almost kinda like they switched roles?
Anonymouse 26th Jun 2017, 8:39 AM
So, question. Does Sugar pay attention to Lola's top eyes/does she understand the significance behind them? Because in Panel 8, Lola's bottom eyes looked more shocked than worried, but their top eyes looked more worried than shocked. I was wondering which set Sugar was reacting to.
Guest 27th Jun 2017, 3:10 PM
Sugar seems to have a classic case of that schizophrenic Obliviousness re:facial expressions and social milieu, so I dunno if the top eyes and the discrepancies of expression really register with her. That combined with the fact that she's keeping her eyes on the road, it seems like she recognized that Lo had a Reaction to that statement but I don't know if she did, would or could really parse specifics about it.
Nobody 27th Jun 2017, 5:36 PM
no she does not. i presume sugar often looks at someone's face but not directly into their eyes at all (perhaps the reason some have interpreted a few panels as sugar looking at lola's top eyes, at the right angle), but she would still be looking at the bottom pair.
in said panel, sugar was reacting more to the silence and her own experiences informing her than lola's exact expression, i think.
tyler 26th Jun 2017, 3:29 PM
at this point im just acknowledging the updates and waiting. keep up the good work love
anonymous rabbit 27th Jun 2017, 5:18 AM
"theres no guilt to a corpse"

" a metaphor, for your guilt. youre saying sorry to your guilty self. how you're gonna kill your guilt."

"you think i dont feel guilty over this?"

[eyes emoji]
anonymous rabbit 27th Jun 2017, 5:38 AM
also unrelated to last comment but i find it very interesting how the purple lighting of this scene make sugar and lola's colour palettes become very close to each other. (i dont mean that in a bad way i like when ppl take into account how colours r affected by time of day)

the twilight hours are often hard to see in because the colours are so similar. there's enough light to see but not enough for colour to be truly defined yet. i know its among the most dangerous hours to drive.

i dont wanna read too far into this, but the colours blending together in this twilight hour before the sun rises up into the sky feels very symbolic. i mean, the focus is evenly on sugars brown eye and her left (maybe a bit more on blue but) and yet, the lighting of the scene, theyre almost the same colour.

again, dont wanna reach too far but i find it all very interesting.
Guest 27th Jun 2017, 10:30 AM
There's a lot I could try to get all deep about but honestly others have already mentioned it, so I'm just gonna say that I'm really in love with that one piece of Lola's hair in panels 13 and 14 thats folded over their shoulder and squished a little bit.
Chel 18th Sep 2017, 9:29 PM
"A man is not dead while his name is still spoken." - Terry Pratchett