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17th Aug 2017, 12:00 PM
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Nobody 17th Aug 2017, 12:00 PM edit delete
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running on fumes.
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Guest 17th Aug 2017, 12:03 PM edit delete reply
*HUGE sigh of relief that we might find out if sugar is actually alive*
also, another iteration of "i stopped for me, because of you." i wonder if that'll end up being echoed by sugar if we ever hear from her again?
Guest 17th Aug 2017, 12:18 PM edit delete reply
👀 👀 👀
Guest 17th Aug 2017, 12:07 PM edit delete reply
I just want Lola to get home safe but they don't really have anywhere to go (that we know of) and Im more worried for them now than when i was worried they were going to die.
josie 17th Aug 2017, 12:10 PM edit delete reply
thinking abt that conversation about the little things brought along in the trip everyone had a while ago... that one cigarette is the very last. looks like lola may have left the lighter behind?
MysteriousJeff 17th Aug 2017, 12:18 PM edit delete reply
This page really captures the feeling of night well I love your shading and color choicesssssssss~

Also it's a really neat touch of the panel Lola has he reyes closed and the truck interior disappears like, is it a visual representation of dissociating? i know like sometimes i'll get in moods and will close my eyes to just kind of, feel like i'm falling in a void in space.
Guest 17th Aug 2017, 12:39 PM edit delete reply
em x desiree..... I could c it happening lol
calph 17th Aug 2017, 1:12 PM edit delete reply
I love this bit with the cigarette and missing lighter. Very simple and ordinary, yet there's a lot of shades of meaning that can be read into it.

It may be a little too on the nose to draw a parallel between the lighter and Sugar being "the light of [Lola's] life" (p. 109), but the loss of Lola's bic unmistakably echoes Sugar's absence. Lola hasn't even begun to process what happened at the canyon, and not even having a lighter reminds us that nothing is normal or okay.

It's worth remembering though that Sugar bought those cigarettes, and that the gift was a pure expression of her feelings for Lola. The cigarettes are still here, even if they're unusable, and so a reminder of Sugar's love and presence still remains.

This contradiction betwen Sugar's symbolic presence and absence is mirrored by our uncertainty as to whether Sugar is alive or dead, and if alive, whether she even wants to see Lola again.

Desiree says she quit cigarettes to do what's best for herself. Lola may not have *wanted* to quit cigarettes, but I suspect they're thinking a lot about what's best for themself as they reach out to Sugar.
Guest 17th Aug 2017, 2:32 PM edit delete reply
the research you do (or knowledge you have) is really on point, like with the whole trucking thing. just last year i learned a lot about trucking... (somehow) and its pretty accurate. you can't legally drive for more than 30 hours in a row or something, you have to stop and take a break and go to sleep.

also just my onion, but i feel a little bit uncomfortable with shipping of lola and desiree. it's not like desiree has blushed or is hitting on her; it feels like she's taking a motherly role. like i can imagine one of the reasons desiree picked her up is like, "well, better me than somebody else unsavory" because lola was looking really vulnerable.
Nobody 17th Aug 2017, 4:06 PM edit delete reply
Nobody
you're correct.
relevantly, on the last page, the script originally had a line where desiree told lola she could put her shirt down, to the thinly veiled embarrassment of lola. i decided to cut it in the end because it seemed a little mean to do to lola, but desiree is past her mid-life and has no interest in someone the age of her kids.
some other lines cut here were desiree asking lola if she had anything that would get her in trouble in her bag, and lola responding with "are clothes illegal in arizona?", to which desiree responded "yeah, i'm an outlaw, haha."
desiree also originally mentioned that she isn't supposed to pick anyone up while she's trucking (you need a permit to have a second person riding and can be pulled over for it).
both of the mentioned bits of dialog were cut for various reasons, mainly brevity/time constraints.
Duskitty 17th Aug 2017, 8:32 PM edit delete reply
Duskitty
agreed with the shipping thing; desiree's much older than lola. while they're both adults, the age gap is still uncomfortably large

i feel like desiree is taking more of a 'fostering' role than a romantic interest role
Peach 17th Aug 2017, 4:21 PM edit delete reply
That lighting!! Your art is so powerful...
Anonymouse 17th Aug 2017, 6:17 PM edit delete reply
I'm glad Lola hasn't given up hope on Sugar being alive yet. And I'm glad we finally get to see what Lola has for Sugar's contact info!

Small victories in these trying times.
Guest 17th Aug 2017, 6:30 PM edit delete reply
i'm imagining desiree with a heavy minnesota accent AND NOBODY CAN STOP ME
yan 17th Aug 2017, 8:19 PM edit delete reply
the panel with desiree saying "sit tight" and the background having stars to me feels like lola's feeling a pang of like... someone cares for her, and shes not used to someone coming off perhaps in a motherly way
just the idea of a complete stranger being so accommodating and trying to protect lola in small ways like that
i also appreciate that desiree keeps small talking about stuff like her past relationship, that also shows a lot that she's trying to be accommodating
Guest 17th Aug 2017, 8:29 PM edit delete reply
that lighting change on the panel where lola is dissociating/"spacing out" (pun intended) is gorgeous, holy shit. it's the little details that make me fall in love with this comic all over again
chalpal 18th Aug 2017, 2:49 AM edit delete reply
this is kinda a silly theory but like what if the comic ends with them getting some sorta closure on the reasons(people wise) why they came on the trip. Lola's main reason was her mum and now they have a motherly figure helping them,, Sugar's was Angel, if sugar does die maybe she meets a nice angel in heaven/becomes an angel herself,,, or a guardian angel for Lola ?
( either literally or metaphorically )

also I really like the colour palette in this page
Guest 18th Aug 2017, 4:11 AM edit delete reply
Sugar being an angel and followin Lola in a "Vicky Angel" style would be so fucking cool, however drop out is quite realistic as a comic and portraying heaven as an existing place (esp since sugars an atheist$ would be... weird
89 18th Aug 2017, 4:09 PM edit delete reply
Thanks Lola for making me feel less self conscious about the dark circles constantly under my eyes cause I am loving panels 8-10 and understand that eye bag look. Lots of emotions over that red lighter being gone too.
earthcell 18th Aug 2017, 7:07 PM edit delete reply
earthcell
i can feel the pain of not having the lighter, sometimes you need your smoke to feel okay and having that taken away is just the shit cherry on the shit cake
Syllith 18th Aug 2017, 8:28 PM edit delete reply
The lighting is always so well done. Can I ask, do you draw them with normal lighting then edit it later or do you just have a REALLY good eye for color palletes?
Nobody 18th Aug 2017, 10:13 PM edit delete reply
Nobody
heya sillith. i'm usually dissatisfied with my color work, but i do it from scratch; it saves time and provides more accuracy than recoloring.
Guest 20th Aug 2017, 3:43 PM edit delete reply
I'm a lil confused, has Lola been texting Sugar since they left the grand canyon?
Nobody 20th Aug 2017, 7:10 PM edit delete reply
Nobody
no. if she had been, the text history would have responses like the ones on the last page.
she sent 3 messages in a row about her whereabouts, after realizing she'd need to add more information for sugar to find her, but they were all within a few minutes of each other.