1. lola saying “you can keep asking” in contrast with the two’s rigid rules of One Question A Day previously is… hmm… i don’t want to get personal here, but basically, it’s touching on something in my life, and it’s also just interesting to note her apparent change.
2. can’t help but wonder if this conversation thread is making lola consider those they’re leaving behind, and what memories they have of lola.
3. i love the line “i remember feeling it”. i’m not entirely sure why it’s resonating with me so much, but like, damn. the read I’m getting here is that lola suppresses her emotions so often that she remembers the event as her merely feeling the emotions, not actually sharing them, as she would do most of the time.
4. sugar’s face in the last panel…… that exhausted pain. that poor gal. gosh.
5. relatedly, i think that this is a good example of how sugar has trouble understanding people’s intent behind their words, and lola’s own communication problems exacerbate that. due to sensitivity to negative perception of her, she jumps to lola doubting her when she can’t quite make sense of what lola has said, presumably due to her schizophrenia. lola is often vague with her speech, and sugar is extra sensitive to their opinion of her b/c sugar loves them, so, well, you get this.
in the "you can keep asking" panel its actually Sugar who is saying that. I was confused too but if you look closely sugar is behind her saying it//its in sugars speech color.
There's a couple lines from a poem I really like that go something like this: "If no one knows you're alive, you aren't. If a tree falls in a forest and no one's around to hear it, it does make a sound, but then that sound is gone." I've been thinking about that poem a lot while reading this. I don't have anything too interesting to say about it, but there's something there that I feel a lot. I really like how you're engaging the subject here.
Another compliment to the expressions and artwork on the page, especially the first three panels of Lola eyeing that last cigarette. It makes me sad and nervous at the same time though knowing it's the last one from her pack. I'm wondering if she took those last couple pills yet too. With the amount she's binged on over the course of the trip, even with a lower tolerance after being clean, she probably wouldn't feel much of a high at all from the couple pills she has left.
I re-read this comic recently from start to a few pages ago and have been trying to interpret different motivations and thoughts for these characters in my head. I really can't predict the ending at all at this point, whether they'll go through with it, whether Lola truly wants to die, whether something/someone will interrupt Sugar's carefully thought out plan for where to jump. It's making me nervous and sad since I've grown to love these characters so much and just want a happy ending for both of them but life doesn't really work like that and this is so wonderfully and realistically written that it's impossible to predict the outcome, like in real life. Anyway more props to this comic overall, has made me Thursdays better this year.
not a super-related thought, but i feel like the moment lola's bottom eye-shinies come back (if they do) everyone's gonna lose their mind like they did on page 73
The way of Sugars eyes in some of the panels is very well done how the lowlights are almost the same shade as one another and so are the midtones it looks like. Feels natural and real sublte but also almost not
and idk if I’m just noticing it now but Lola uses a lot of filler words, particularly “like” in this scene, contimuously making similies out of the metaphors, even saying “like a metaphor” and i feel like it really reflects her fundamental detachment like how what is the difference between the real thing and a reference of the real thing when you don't have youre self so there’s particularly nothing to refer to or from like how can anything be grasped but as an unrealised concept, an idea removed grown from something else thought up by someone else, the very separation itself a foundation?
it feels like they have the closest idea they can get to one another just (at them moment)with their differences, mite just be the rising tension on its own but it seems their words are quickly getting less and less different. This page made me think of how Lola was just talking on 101 and 102about purpose and the meaning of life and living for feeling: Someone felt like it so now it is, but now its up to you to make it happen. But to Sugar, someone didn’t feel like it so now it isnt and now its up to you to make that happen. i think Lolas detachment and Sugars viscerality color the way that their shared goal of preservation takes form with Lolas legacy or echo or iteration(?) of other’s and drifting, versus the realness of Sugars own Angel and her functionally shot-for-shot re enactment thusfar and i think I wanted to say more about this but im out of juice
Just wanted to let you know that I regularly have dreams about these two characters. That's something that doesn't even happen with my own characters; that's how great these two are.
I'm so... I guess anxious? To see how this all ends. This has been a fantastic story.
2. can’t help but wonder if this conversation thread is making lola consider those they’re leaving behind, and what memories they have of lola.
3. i love the line “i remember feeling it”. i’m not entirely sure why it’s resonating with me so much, but like, damn. the read I’m getting here is that lola suppresses her emotions so often that she remembers the event as her merely feeling the emotions, not actually sharing them, as she would do most of the time.
4. sugar’s face in the last panel…… that exhausted pain. that poor gal. gosh.
5. relatedly, i think that this is a good example of how sugar has trouble understanding people’s intent behind their words, and lola’s own communication problems exacerbate that. due to sensitivity to negative perception of her, she jumps to lola doubting her when she can’t quite make sense of what lola has said, presumably due to her schizophrenia. lola is often vague with her speech, and sugar is extra sensitive to their opinion of her b/c sugar loves them, so, well, you get this.
I re-read this comic recently from start to a few pages ago and have been trying to interpret different motivations and thoughts for these characters in my head. I really can't predict the ending at all at this point, whether they'll go through with it, whether Lola truly wants to die, whether something/someone will interrupt Sugar's carefully thought out plan for where to jump. It's making me nervous and sad since I've grown to love these characters so much and just want a happy ending for both of them but life doesn't really work like that and this is so wonderfully and realistically written that it's impossible to predict the outcome, like in real life. Anyway more props to this comic overall, has made me Thursdays better this year.
and idk if I’m just noticing it now but Lola uses a lot of filler words, particularly “like” in this scene, contimuously making similies out of the metaphors, even saying “like a metaphor” and i feel like it really reflects her fundamental detachment like how what is the difference between the real thing and a reference of the real thing when you don't have youre self so there’s particularly nothing to refer to or from like how can anything be grasped but as an unrealised concept, an idea removed grown from something else thought up by someone else, the very separation itself a foundation?
it feels like they have the closest idea they can get to one another just (at them moment)with their differences, mite just be the rising tension on its own but it seems their words are quickly getting less and less different. This page made me think of how Lola was just talking on 101 and 102about purpose and the meaning of life and living for feeling: Someone felt like it so now it is, but now its up to you to make it happen. But to Sugar, someone didn’t feel like it so now it isnt and now its up to you to make that happen. i think Lolas detachment and Sugars viscerality color the way that their shared goal of preservation takes form with Lolas legacy or echo or iteration(?) of other’s and drifting, versus the realness of Sugars own Angel and her functionally shot-for-shot re enactment thusfar and i think I wanted to say more about this but im out of juice
I'm so... I guess anxious? To see how this all ends. This has been a fantastic story.